Your redemption, in the end, was never ultimately about changing your doing with its awkward and jerky contortions, all to be expected as being begins to transform into the disposition of the Son. The consequent change in doing is merely a secondary consequence following the more important generation of the disposition of the Son, as Jesus Christ continues putting in you His own disposition, His own way of being. And indeed, God “…was pleased to reveal His Son in me” is a literal process, the actual being of Jesus taking shape in your being. A new disposition unfolding in real time and space, in moments just like this, conditions exactly like those you are experiencing. This is no mere shadow game.
Early on in the trek, you will be skeptical of the possibility you have been set apart, called by grace, even before you were born, to be transformed into the image of the Son. And skepticism will be fed by the awkward contortions of your doing, as the disposition of the Son, revealed in you, begins to migrate outward into the very fibers of your flesh, rendering you an “…instrument of righteousness” (Romans 6:13). Doubts will assail as the flesh howls in protest, resisting the calling that cannot be ignored. But rest assured, the disposition of the Son is your destiny. It is your calling, fulfilled as you trek after the Serving King, as He calls it into being. He is “pleased to reveal.”
The contortions, ever awkward and clumsy as this new ‘disposition’ takes shape, will lessen over time. Soon, the very fibers of your flesh will cling to this new disposition, liberating the flesh from its slavery to sin (Romans 3:17), rendering you an “instrument of righteousness.” Your doing will begin to display the maturity of one who has been set aside from the dawn of time, reflecting the image of the Son, pleasing God who calls. And yes, you too will begin to say, “I begin to see what He is driving at when He proclaims I must be holy.”
The disposition of the Son will soon be yours as He regenerates and rebuilds the very fibers of your being. It is the inevitable fruit of Jesus putting His nature into you. And yes, doing too will find a new way of expression. It is the fruit of His disposition taking shape in you.