Early in the trek after the Serving King, the illusion of everything new blossoms, unleashing volumes of optimism, a false sanctification of old ways of being and doing, suggesting some old could yet remain. Novices forget, or perhaps never understood, “God pays no respect to anything we bring to Him.” Instead, it all must be radically altered, regenerated into the new order of things. But this regeneration is rarely instantaneous in a comprehensive sense, renovating being and doing in the blink of an eye, ushering in the new creation in all of its fullness.
You will be tempted to proclaim the new creation by simply approving the old, a grave mistake. But there can be no simple proclamation of the old as good. To the contrary, the old must indeed pass away as the new has come crashing onto the shores of your old ways of being and doing. And yes, it will not be pleasant at times as the new crashes in.
But your unconditional surrender, seemingly inconsequential in the early days of the trek, soon takes on new significance as the Conqueror, equally full of optimism for your future, begins the project of renovating each and every dimension of your being and consequent doing. And with each piece of renovation, “…the new has come,” arrives an even deeper understanding of what is yet still to be done, each new aspect providing never before seen clarity of Self, stained by the old. With each new understanding, clarity of Self ever clearer, comes the call to another unconditional surrender more profound than previous surrenders, probing deeper and deeper into the essence of your being.
You will wonder many days into the trek, “Does this deeper understanding of self-awareness ever end? Will I soon be free of the need for daily unconditional surrender to the Serving King?” Yes, “…there will come a time when there is not a bit of the old order left,” but it will not be today, and probably not tomorrow.
There is still much renovating to be done as the new breaks into and on the old. Perhaps, more importantly, there is coming a day when you bask in the joy of being under construction, a day when the joy of the new outweighs the old, when unconditional surrender is the great joy of your life. Trek on, a great work is in progress…